Re: [computer-go] Pattern Matcher

["Frank de Groot" <frank@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>]

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Subject: Re: [computer-go] Pattern Matcher


> Or are you actually suffering from a terminal illness (or some condition
where you will pass away
> in the next 6mths to 2yrs) and you are actually referring to the next year
or two?

I am under massive medication for a chronic infection in my central nervous
system (neuroborreliosis) and there are complications due to that medication
(systemic candidiasis) for which I also am under equally massive medication
:)
Both diseases are incurable and progresssive and lethal. The medications are
enormous dose of antifungals and antibiotics and they cause liver damage.

One problem with neuroborreliosis is violent moodswings. I actually noticed
I had to seek medical help when I almost killed someone. That didn't stop, I
kept on physically attacking people and I ended up on the intensive care
with heart trouble and paralysis of lower extremities. I was months
balancing between life & death and now it is still a terrible situation. I
can't tolerate any sign of agression. It used to be so bad that I slept with
a knife under my pillow and I woke up at the slightest noise and started to
punch the knife in the air. I guess you can call it paranoia induced by
brain damage. I have lesions in my brain (The ZenHacker logo was in fact a
NMR of my own brain).

> As I have been reading your responses, I presumed the former.  I am now
not sure.  Hence, my
> desire for clarification.  I think it will help me better understand you.

It is none of anybody's business to know any details.
When I say: "I will be dead when my Go program is available" I am of course
not sure, I just am estimating likelihood based on some of my aquaintances
with similar health situation. There are so many things to these diseases
that nobody can be sure. And the medical profession is surely doing nothing
to help me either so I am just trying to survive by myself.

I would appreciate no more inquiries about this, it is off-topic.

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